Human beings are the most bloodthirsty and cruel creatures on Earth. They will turn on each other over a penny lying in the gutter. They are for the most part only concerned with "what is in it for me ?"
My family says I am nicer to my dog than I am to my parents. Why not ? After all , she loves me unconditionally. She loves and forgives me even when I make huge mistakes. SHE LOVES ME !! just as I am. Her happiness when she sees me is all that keeps me going when I want to quit, she is my only friend.
Only one person ever came close to that for me. My family couldn't stand that. They all ganged up on us and did not give up until they drove us apart. Yes, there were other problems, (huge ones). Even so my family is what ruined that relationship for me. I will never as long as I live forget how it felt to have someone take care of me for a change. Someone who held me when I cried, and really listened to what I said. There was some really bad times. I know I hurt him just as much as he hurt me and for that I am deeply sorry.
"Along with the sunshine, there's got to be a little rain sometimes" We also brought love and laughter into each others lives for a brief and precious time. When I was in his house , it felt like I had a real home of my own. I felt safe and cherished just like a real person with a real life. Now all I have is memories of sleeping in his arms as I lie in my cold empty bed. No one makes me chicken star soup when I am sick or calls me late at night to talk until I can fall asleep. I had all that and lost it, I don't believe it will ever happen again for me.
So basically. Life's a bitch and then you die. or if you prefer. "IT IS WHAT IT IS......"
