In the past I have written some nasty posts on here. I was hurt and angry at the time and it was a childish thing to do.Today I deleted one of those blogs. I am ashamed I wrote it at all.
It has always been so easy to place the blame for the troubles in my life on the other person The truth is not one of those people forced me to do things that I didn't want to. I could have walked away, but I didn't. I could have said no, but I stayed silent. The reason is that any attention is better than none. Loneliness makes a person do stupid things sometimes.
In simpler terms. The person responsible for 90% of the painful parts of my life is ME ! I am the one who set myself up to get hurt over and over again. It was me and no one else.
There is no way to take back what I said. Words once written or spoken can be forgiven, but not forgotten. This blog is a written confession of sorts so that I will never forget what I did.
This baring of my soul is only the first step. Now I have to makes sure it never happens again. I know it won't be easy. I will mess it up sometimes ,even if I do try my best.
I am far from perfect. I am just me .... and this is a part of me, one that needs changed.
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