I said I would never do this.....

I have always said that drinking alone is a dangerous habit to get into. Today I bought a bottle of vodka and now I am having my first solitary screwdriver.
I don't intend to have more than this one, at least tonight.

The pathetic thing is I have to sneak to have it. My Mom would freak out if she knew. By the way I am 46 years old. It's not illegal to have a drink, but it sure feels like it is right now.

I don't know why I feel the need to do this.... Maybe it's loneliness, or feeling trapped ? I'll write more as things progress - and see if I can keep to one drink or not.