I am a 5'3" woman who is obese, I weigh 214 lbs. A healthy weight range for a woman my height is 107-135lbs. My BMI is 38 , the healthy range is 18.5 -24.9. Not good at all for my health.
My health would benefit from losing even a part of that excess weight. Yet, I still don't want to put the effort into trying to lose any weight. I can't take another failure, it is too painful.
Being obese feels safe and familiar to me as well. Would my life suddenly change for the better if I weighed less ? Health wise yes , without a doubt. Other than that , not one little bit. I could pretend otherwise , but it would just be setting myself up for disappointment. The only reasonable changes I could expect would be in my clothing size and the numbers on the scale.
Every time I have lost weight I expected something wonderful to happen. Now I know that I was just fooling myself. Expecting something to happen , does not make it so. It's time for me to wake up and accept that. The real world is a cold , hard , lonely place at times . You can waste your time expecting or pretending something is going to happen, but reality is all you will get.
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