I know I said I wasn't gonna post for a while, but it's my blog and I can do as I damn well please. Plus the freaking weather has postponed the delivery of my Elliptical till Saturday.
Today Hospice came to our house to talk to us about providing services for Mom. It scares me to think of how fragile she is. We get on each others nerves all the time, but she is still my Mom. My parents are the only constants in my life it's so hard to picture my life without them.
I used to joke that I was never going to leave home, and that is pretty much what happened.
Today has made me realize just how very alone I am. Being alone used to scare me, but I don't fear solitude anymore. After being lied to, used, hurt and disappointed so many times it seems like a safer and more peaceful way to live my life. My rose colored glasses are broken and I can see clearly for the first time. What I see is that the only person I can truly rely on is me.
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