Perfection

I am going to stop blogging for a while. The reason is I don't like what I have been writing lately. It's all nasty and bitter and filled with nothing but negative things.

Instead I am going to workout on my new Elliptical. I am going to stop thinking about right and wrong, fair and unfair and just sweat.

All this garbage that I have been writing about and torturing myself with is killing me. At the rate I am going I will end up a bitter old bitch. That would suck and more importantly be a terrible thing to do to my son.

My elliptical is scheduled for delivery on Feb. 2nd. Some of my friends on Lose It have them. One of them calls his the "torture device" That sounds great to me, because if I am focused on torturing my body then my brain will shut the hell up.

I don't want to think for a long time. I don't want to feel either. All I want is to wear myself out so that I don't have the energy to do anything but what is entirely necessary. I want to be so tired that I don't even have the energy to dream. That would be..... Perfection