Help !!!

I never needed help more than I do right now. The problem is I have no one to go to for what I need. So it's up to me to figure out how to survive just the way things are and not fall apart.

I live with my Mom and Dad and I am the youngest. Those 2 things are what is being used against me. Every move I make every breath I take is watched by all the rest of the family.

They can go home and leave this behind. I don't have that luxury because I am here 24/7. If they don't feel well they don't come over. If I don't feel well I am expected to just ignore it.

It's hard enough to deal with my own health problems and pitch in to help with Mom and Dad. Most of the time I can deal pretty good with that. Except when I need help and they all act like I am faking and turn their backs on me. I hate this family when that happens. I am so tired of their double standards. I don't give a shit if I am the youngest. Facts are facts and my Doctors can verify that I have health problems. No one deserves to be treated like I am by them.
My nerves are about to snap and if it weren't for Lilac they would have done so by now.

There is no solution for this that I can see. It will come to a head soon, I can feel the pressure building and the explosion will not be pleasant. I know that I will be called every nasty name they can think of and accused of all sorts of sins against my Mom. She will not say anything because she needs the others too much to risk alienating them.

It's easier for her to sacrifice me than to speak up against them. That has happened so many times before that it is easy to predict. There is no defense against them, you can't reason with people who can not compromise on anything. It's not because they are right. It is because the hold the high card, the threat of not helping with Dad and sending him to a nursing home.