Dear Diary,I can't explain why but I am troubled today. My heart feels numb and I can't explain to you or anyone why. Right now it's a complete mystery to me.
All I know is that I can't feel happy or sad for very long. It's like a switch inside me has been flipped off, and with it my ability to feel. I have tried my best, but I just can't turn it back on.
I don't miss feeling sadness not at all to be honest . Happiness I do miss very, very much. Even as I write this all down it's like I am describing someone else not me.
Without feelings life is like eating plain vanilla ice cream at every meal. Feelings are the sprinkles, nuts , whip cream and cherry on top. Life becomes boring existence without them.
My "friends" would tell me to "cheer up". Pretending to be happy for them is not gonna work this time. I have to figure out how to turn that switch back on. Nothing else will help me.
Dear Diary, I still don't know what to do. But I feel a little bit better now. Just putting it down in words has helped a lot. Thank you for listening. xoxo
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