Thursday, June 3, 2010

"What do you believe people think about you ?"


A person's self-image is the mental picture, generally of a kind that is quite resistant to change. It includes things that can be seen by others and also things that are learned by experience such as the items listed below.

• Am I skinny?
• Am I fat?
• Am I attractive?

• Am I weak?
• Am I strong?
• Am I intelligent?
• Am I stupid?
• Am I a good person?
• Am I a bad person?
• Am I masculine?

• Am I feminine?
• Am I likable

"What do you believe people think about you ?"

Forming a healthy self-image can be hard especially when family, peers, community, or the general society have very negative evaluations of a person that happen to be inaccurate. The result of this is self hatred.
Poor self-image is caused by invalid criticisms that the person collected as a child that damage the way they see themselves. Children accept false negative judgments from authority figures because they trust and look up to them.

Today I discussed my theory as to why I can't make myself work out. I told my counselor about what I had said in my earlier blog. Together he and I came to a completely different conclusion than the one I had reached by myself.
My "poor self image" is what I am struggling with. I need to learn to like myself. . Easy to say , but hard to do. This is gonna take some time. First things first.

"What do I believe people think about me ?"
I talk too much and too loud. My friends all deserted me. I rarely talk to them anymore and never see them. They don't ask me out not even for coffee. They are ashamed to be seen with me . I am fat, very pale, and kinda plain. My legs are short, my hips and belly are big. It looks like I have an inner tube under my clothes. I chew my fingernails and hardly ever wear makeup. My hair is usually messy or just flat. It is clean but it is not styled. I have boobs but not much. I don't read the paper or follow world events. I know nothing about music , sports or most any other topic . I can't dance and am afraid to learn how to. I am boring . I am mentally ill , Manic Depressive aka - Bi-Polar . A Loony bird. In short a loser.

Hell, I don't even like me. Why should they ?
Yeah , that's what I have to change.
Aren't I a lucky girl ?


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