Hate

Hate is an ugly word. As a child I used it a lot. As I have gotten older and seen the results of hate my view of it changed dramatically. Hate is a word to use with care. Hate causes war, death, abuse and brings nothing but pain and sorrow.

There is one person that I do hate very much . I hate her so much that I would like to never come near her again. No matter what I say or do to her she will not leave me in peace. She follows me like a blood hound. I can't escape her.

What do I hate about her the most ? She craves friends, but lacks social skills. One moment she's on top of the world, the next in tears. It's easy to feel sorry for her , but impossible to like her. She always trusts the wrong people and often gets taken advantage of. She feels safest alone, but hates being lonely. When people treat her badly she thinks she deserves it. She never learns from her mistakes. Next time will be better ....She tells herself over and over.

You have probably guessed ....The person I hate is "Me". I hate almost everything about myself. "Hate" is an ugly word, as I said before. "Self Hate" is even worse in some ways. Because you can never escape from yourself ...not even in sleep.

This is the part where I am supposed to say something brilliant.... Well , it's not gonna happen. If you want happily ever after read a fairy tale.