I want to feel peaceful inside. I have been wanted this for a very long time. I looked a lot of different places and asked many, many questions . Still I never found what I was looking for. In fact all I found was trouble, tears and heartache.
Yesterday as I celebrated each little step Lilac made towards trusting me I realized something had changed inside me. I felt a warm feeling deep in my heart. It felt really good, and it reminded me of memories of long gone days.
Sunday drives, going fishing, a perfect spring day. Those were times in my past when I felt truly at peace. As I thought about those times I realized something.
Peace doesn't come from the world around us. All these many years I had been looking in the wrong place. I thought that all the answers were out there just beyond my fingertips. Now I knew it had been right there in my heart all along.
Dorothy in the "Wizard of Oz" said it best. When the tin woodsman asked her what she had learned, she replied.
" if I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own back yard. Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with!
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